Yesterday, When I Was Young

讀坂本龍一的《我還能再看到幾次滿月?》，

讀到這一段：

“另外還有像這樣的情況 : 住院時我隨意點開兒子在臉書貼的某 首樂曲 ，前奏結束之後歌曲唱了幾小節 ，我出乎意料之外的 淚流不止 。 那是美國鄉村音樂歌手羅伊 · 克拉克 ( Roy Clark ) 的歌曲 ( Yesterday , when I was young)。

我這人平常聽歌曲時 ，腦袋是聽不進歌詞內容 的 。 而且 羅伊 · 克拉克與我實在沒有什麼 交 集， 從來也沒想到自己會如此被 其打動 。歌詞所唱的，是肯定自己的人生，同時也領悟到有些東西已經再難挽回。那是在單向的時間盡頭等待的苦悶未來。無論你是誰、無論做什麼工作，也曾這樣想過吧。然後對於上了這把年紀的我聽了又特別有感，真是不想哭也難。這首歌曲是法國香頌歌手夏爾·阿茲納弗(CharlesAznavour)在四十歲創作，很難想像是他如此年輕時候作的曲子。阿茲納弗也有留下在晚年顫顫巍巍地演唱這首歌的現場表演影片，真是非常非常有韻味。”

不同的人生階段，有些歌就會出現來感動你： 

Yesterday when I was young 

yesterday when I was young 

the taste of life was sweet as rain 

upon my tongue

 I teased at life as if it were a foolish game 

the way the evening breeze may 

tease a candle flame 

the thousand dreams I dreamed, 

the splendid things I planned 

I always built, alas, on weak and shifting sand 

I lived by night and shunned the naked light of day and only now I see how the years ran away 

Yesterday when I was young 

so many drinking songs were waiting to be sung 

so many wayward pleasures lay in store for me 

and so much pain my dazzled eyes refused to see 

I ran so fast that time and youth at last ran out 

I never stopped to think what life was all about 

and every conversation I can now recall 

concerned itself with me, 

and nothing else at all 

Yesterday the moon was blue 

and every crazy day brought 

something new to do 

I used my magic age as if it were a wand 

and never saw the waste and emptiness 

beyond the game of love 

I played with arrogance and pride 

and every flame I lit too quickly, quickly died 

the friends I made all seemed 

somehow to drift away 

and only I am left on stage to end the play 

there are so many songs in me that won't be sung 

I feel the bitter taste of tears upon my tongue 

the time has come for me to pay for 

yesterday when I was young